"As a child I was held captive by feelings of fear, shame, anger, loneliness, and a profound sense of being unloved. I developed a belief system about myself based on these feelings that shaped and directed the trajectory of my entire life. I was defined by that thinking and undone by it. Every decision and relationship was governed by it. I decided I wanted to write about where the belief system sprang from, the choices I made because of it, and how slowly over time it is metamorphosing. For years, I saw myself as a victim; I wanted you to see me as a victim too, because if I were a victim, then I wasn't responsible was I? Learning to accept responsibility for myself and my choices has been a rough and often reluctant path to trudge but the rewards have been copious and surprising. Becoming healthier and more mature, I attract like people. I'm no longer looking for someone or something outside myself to make me okay; I'm discovering I'm just fine as I am. "
Meredith Baxter
Untied: A Memoir of Family, Fame and Floundering
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