Impossible Motherhood: a testimony of an abortion addict

"Self-mutilation, an inability to self-protect, is a common response to abandonment."


"There are many theories for self injury as there are trauma survivors - escaping feelings of emptiness, easing tension, expressing pain, punishing the body as a way of expressing responsibility for the abuse, providing a sense of control and mastery. My repetition compulsion was based on impulsive acts to ward off experiencing aloneness and badness. Dissociation was an opportunity for magical thinking, a sense of mastery to overcome powerlessness, hopelessness and learned helplessness. "


Irene Vilar
Impossible Motherhood: a testimony of an abortion addict